Shock - Denial - Bargaining - Guilt - Anger - Depression - Acceptance and Hope
Updates. I met, in a quasi-academic seek-tease it out-gain forgiveness by understanding their predicament kind of way, these people with specific condition, the one that makes them immune to guilt, the cruel, the insensitive, those who want to play those that love them like chess figurines. And get pissed when that game does not play out for them. And there goes the chess board, shattered on the floor, it doesn't even matter if it was not theirs.
I can acknowledge the beauty of human condition, whatever it is. But I can't find peace for myself. I do not think there is hope anywhere, any longer.
It is a mystery to me as to why lovable people can't love. And why for every able to love, but totally unlovable person there will be a dozen of citizens of the first group. And how to leave this closed space, where there is only abnormal. Why, what did nature mean in twisting some brains so that they go out into the world in order to play, to emotionally rape. What, then, did they want from me, what is the 'higher' meaning of being the target. Religion fails to explain it, science fails to explain it, art fails to explain it.
